So I sent my husband a text message that said “thank you for being a friend”. I don’t know what came over me. I was thinking about stuff and I somehow convinced myself that I had a friend in my husband; but right after I wrote the text whatever had come over me started to wear off and I started having reservations about sending the text; but then I decided to go ahead and risk the embarrassment. So I sent the text.
Usually when I send my husband text messages he calls back right away. Then again usually I send him sexy pictures and videos. He didn’t call back when I sent him the text saying thank you for being a friend. He did call some time after about something else and during the conversation he said “you sent me a text” and that was all that was said about that.
Then later on in the evening I was making dinner and he was in the kitchen and he said “You sent me a text telling me I was your best friend”. But there was something in the way he said it that was kind of off-putting. I don’t really know how to explain. The only thing I can say is that the reason I was reluctant to send the text after I wrote it was because in my heart I kind of knew that in his heart my husband doesn’t really feel friendship towards me. And I knew after he didn’t acknowledge the text by calling back that he was confused why I would thank him for being a friend when we both know he’s not really been a friend to me in any profound, meaningful way. He’s done so many things to hurt and embarrass me in the years we’ve been married that I would have to have serious mental problems to be thinking he’s any kind of friend to me.
So when he started to bring it up in the kitchen I told him I’d rather not talk about it. He just didn’t sound sincere with the things he was saying. He’d gotten as far as starting to say he’s glad he’s my best friend and he regrets all the things he’s done to hurt me, but he sounded so fake I just couldn’t bear to hear it. I don’t know what had come over me in the first place.