Writing this because I need an outlet…. My husband says all I do is complain and bitch at him and I’m always negative. I’ve never seen myself this way, and I sit and think about it, and I just don’t know what to do. I’m sad. Really sad. I don’t think I bitch a lot, I don’t think I complain. I mostly complain because he’s flirty with other women, and it bothers me. Not because I don’t trust him, because I do. I bring it up in the nicest way possible, the nicest way that I know how because I’m just afraid to be embarrassed by another woman asking him isn’t he in a relationship in front of everyone. I look dumb. I rub his back every night. I do what he asks of me. If he needs something I try my best to get it done, whether it’s getting him an address, calling a company for him, washing his uniform, anything. I try. I try not to bitch or complain and I think I do an amazing job. I don’t find myself bitching at him. I may rub his back, may do what he asks but somehow he is always in a bad mood or upset. The other day he asked me to let me him know when I was done on the iPad. I mimicked his voice as a joke just to lighten the mood. He stormed out of the living room and left the house. I don’t understand how I make him so upset. It’s just come down to me loving him and just wanting him to be happy. With me or not. And I’ve let him know. And when I do, he hugs me and tells me he doesn’t want to lose me. I just don’t understand. He says he doesn’t want to hear me talk like that. But then he has this awful negative view on me. I’ve never felt so bad about myself like this before. Like how can I make someone so unhappy? I’m 9 weeks pregnant for the first time. My first pregnancy, and it’s just awful. I just want to be happy. I want to feel special and make someone else happy. I know how, I just don’t understand why it can’t be him.
I’m the nagging wife…