Help me,

I love my wife & we have a story book romance but she is incredibly selfish sexually.

I was her first boyfriend / lover 25 years ago.

We have been reunited /married for almost 4 years & I don’t want to cheat on her.

Our sex life is OK, but I miss blow jobs.

I have had partners in the past who would give me head to completion on a regular basis ;but my wife has only done so twice.

It is a part of our forplay, but that’s it.

Here’s an example, tonight she came home to wine, home made dinner, great conversation, then showered together.

She approached me for sex, I never say no.

I went down on her, she got off, we had sex she got off a few times then started talking while I’m “trying to get mine”.

Finally I asked “why don’t you take care of me (orraly)”?

This lead to a debate which ended with me saying” nevermind, I’m fine ” & getting dressed .

I feel very neglected sexually, I may not being arrogant but I’m a nice looking guy & a good lover who never had a problem getting sex in the past.

The real problem is I REALLY miss receiving a blow job, & cheating is crossing my mind quite a lot.
I truly love my wife & don’t want to cheat; in fact if I did I’d end up telling her which wild result in divorce & me probably ending my life.

I really think that she is my soul mate.

Jacking it to porn don’t work.

I’ve told her how rejected it masked me feel, but she just says that I relate sex to love too much.
Any sincere suggestions would be appreciated.

Thanks.