We’ve been together for 15 years, 5 kids (4 are his) and a shit ton of frustration later im ready to file for divorce. First I want to state I only legally married him to get onto his insurance when finding out baby #4 was on his way, in no way had I ever planned on marrying him simply because I didn’t want to get married, ever, my choice. He’s a lazy husband and father. He nit picks over EVERYTHING, I feel like I’m married to a cranky woman. He has no motivation to do anything, he works, but that’s it. I work too, Im sick of doing and being everything around here. He doesn’t take care of himself because that takes effort, and he’s too lazy. He’s a liar on top of it and that is a HUGE issue to me, if I can’t trust you then I’m done. Im not even physically attracted to him anymore, just looking at his face enrages me… I tell him I’m not in love with him, I tell him I want him to leave and he just brushes it off like Ill be over it in a few days, he thinks just because I’m not yelling and screaming that I’m ok with him, that’s not the case, I just refuse to carry on like that around the kids and I’m civil for them not because I’m ok with him… he lives in this denial… because god forbid anyone knows he failed his marriage.. as long as he can make it appear ok on the outside it doesn’t matter what’s going on inside… Im not fake like that, if I don’t like someone, they know. I’ve been trying to stick it out for our kids but I’m so miserable I know it can’t be good for them either… I just want him out of here, when he’s home I go in our room because I don’t want to be around him because I can literally feel my blood boil… I just want to be happy, I just want to be a happy mom… I just want him gone.