Dear soul mate. I really thought you were the one, my last and the one to grow old with. I don’t know why I love you so much and why I didn’t leave when I found out that u where cheating on me with different women. I lost my confidence. I got paranoid, insecure and I went to the extreme length of spying on you! I feel like a damn fool. I did everything in my power to fulfill your needs and make u happy and didn’t get much in return. I wish I didn’t waste my time, my love, my body and everything else on u. U didn’t value it anyway. After I had your baby, u were thinking I was cheating on u whenever I went shopping or whatever. Ridiculous! I am bringing a baby with me and cheat?! Must be because you are capable of such that u suspect me. I am just sorry I didn’t do the same to you. It’s damn painful. One of the women were 15 years older than you. Nasty! There is no amount of regret and apologies that will ever be enough to fix this. Up to date u never admitted what you did, yet I have proof and I even got confessions from the women. I wish I had the money to leave and never come back. I am not angry at you anymore, I am angry at myself for allowing you to do this to me. I stayed because I really thought you could learn to appreciate and love me. I know you are just using me. Without me and all my efforts you wouldn’t have a good education, and a lot more. I really have been foolish, I thought this was true love. I have been very blind, I know no one is perfect and I should improve myself too, but I don’t cheat or make u insecure, yet u suspect me of the worst. You said it all. It’s over. Thank you for the lesson. I wish that someone treats you the same way you treated me.
The end of us.